Friday, May 25, 2007

My Life Soundtrack

Isn't it great how you can be transported back in time just by hearing a song? Sometimes I will hear a song that had great meaning to me at a certain time in my life and my mind and heart go back to that time. I feel the emotions, I smell the smells and I see myself back then. Here are a few songs that have become a part of my life soundtrack.

I Will Always Love You (Whitney Houston) When I hear this song I am taken back to my first New Years Eve party that I was able to go to by myself. I think I was about 13. This song kind of symbolizes my young freedom. My friends and I would sing it at the top of our lungs until our voices were hoarse and we could sing no more.

Groovy Kind of Love (Phil Collins) Ahhh, I remember the first time I really listened to this song. I was 12 years old and had just come home from a dance and I was in love and I thought it would last forever. This song was my anthem for my love (too bad he didn't know I was alive!).

One Week (Barenaked Ladies) The college days flood back to me full force when I hear this song. I remember loving the video. I remember my roommates and I listening to it over and over trying to get the words down. "Chickety China the Chinese chicken you have a drumstick and your brain stops tickin'... " What does that even mean?

Where Have All the Flowers Gone I heard this song for the first time when my brother sang it with his guitar. I remember listening to the lyrics and just feeling such a sadness for all the people whose lives have been affected by war. When will we ever learn?

Okay, there are so many that I could put and I don't want to bore you. These are just the songs that I've heard recently that have brought back memories for me.

There is one last song that will always hold a very special place in my heart because it helped me through a very difficult time.

Fly (Celine Dion) I heard this song while I was going through my second miscarriage. My first miscarriage was at 8 weeks, and my second one was at 16 weeks. I had to deliver the second baby. It was a boy and we named him Samuel. We were able to hold him. He weighed 8 oz and was 6 inches long. He was so tiny! It was a bittersweet moment to hold him. It was a very hard time for both of us and I had a hard time dealing with it. I was angry and confused and scared. And I missed our little boy, even though I had never known him; I felt like a part of me was missing. Then I heard this song. I feel like it was a blessing from above that I found this song when I did because it was very healing for me. I was able to find some sort of peace when I listened to it. These were the words I wanted to say to the babies that I had lost. Even though life has gone on and we've healed and are happy and we have two beautiful children I don't think I'll ever forget that time...and in a way I don't want to. When I listen to this song I feel connected to Samuel again and like to imagine what he's doing now. If you get a chance, listen to the song...I think it's very powerful. Here are the lyrics:

Fly, fly little wing
Fly beyond imagining
The softest cloud, the whitest dove
Upon the wind of heaven's love
Past the planets and the stars
Leave this lonely world of ours
Escape the sorrow and the pain
And fly again

Fly, fly precious one
Your endless journey has begun
Take your gentle happiness
Far too beautiful for this
Cross over to the other shore
There is peace forevermore
But hold this mem'ry bittersweet
Until we meet

Fly, fly do not fear
Don't waste a breath, don't shed a tear
Your heart is pure, your soul is free
Be on your way, don't wait for me
Above the universe you'll climb
On beyond the hands of time
The moon will rise, the sun will set
But I won't forget

Fly, fly little wing
Fly where only angels sing
Fly away, the time is right
Go now, find the light

What songs are on your life soundtrack?


The McMillans

Kevin and Christie,
When I think about what you went through during those very hard times I feel so overwhelmed by emotion words prove inadequate. I love you, and as always, I am glad you found music to help you heal. I think music is one of the most powerful communicators and languages. Today was a very hard morning, and thanks to your blog I can find the strength again to get through the day thank you for being such a wonderful person, I am blessed to know you!


Jay and Kerry

You guys are the sweetest people on earth! I remember feeling so bad for you during that time and I just wanted to be there and help you through it! Do you remember us coming down to be with you? Isn't it funny how strongly music speaks to us? I've related to many songs and I believe that music is the strongest source of healing in the universe! A song can make your soul come alive and I don't know what this world would be like without music! You two are so strong...I admire you both!

The Blakes

What a tender post! I found myself biting my lip to keep from crying.

I often think about my life's soundtrack. God Bless the Broken Road (Rascal Flats) is the song that reflects Trent and I. But I haven't yet found a song that fits my emotions for Ty.


Wow!! I had no idea you went through all of that. You are such a strong person. I can't even grasp how challenging that must have been. At least now you have two overly beautiful babies to hold every day.

On a lighter note...I love the pics. of Kev fixing the AC. It makes me miss our old house. Even though it was small it was my home.

Random question. Is Kevin still considering Pharmacy School?